Christmas is in two weeks?

I'm finding it really hard to get into the Christmas "spirit" this year. It just doesn't feel like Christmas this year. We are putting up a tree this year, because, well lets face it, it's pointless since we go back to NY to celebrate with our families starting on the 20th-5th. Also since we are going to be moving shortly after the New Year (well that's the hope at least), we decided it was best to send all our Christmas stuff back home so it will be less to move.

This year we are also only buying gifts for three people. Since we're both newly unemployed, and also newly married, we don't have a whole lot of money. We are only buying for J's brother, and our picks in the gathering with my extended family. Oh and of course our dog. We aren't buying for our parents, since we bought them fairly expensive gifts for the wedding just two months ago. And we still don't know if we are getting each other anything either. If we do it will be something very small.

So between the no shopping and no decorating, and the lack of snow on the ground this year, along with not having seen any lights on houses down here, it just doesn't feel like it's almost Christmas.

I have 6 days left of work at my current job, and well a lot to do in those 6 days. It feels weird that I'll be packing up my office next Friday and saying goodbye to my coworkers. I still have to get my resume ready to send out. I have yet to find any jobs to apply for that are design related, and J hasn't heard from the job he applied for yet. But it's only been just over a week. We'll see what happens.

We really don't know what is going to happen after the new year when we will be faced with the reality that we don't have jobs to go to. This is going to be pretty rough for us, we might have to live in different places for a while until we can both get jobs in Buffalo, and get an apartment to move into.

Christmas is going to be depressing in the fact that we don't have too much to look forward to, and we don't know where we're headed. However, it will be really nice to be able to spend so much time with our families and friends over the holidays. It will also be nice to look forward to being back closer to them in a short time and have a much better social life than we do now.

Christmas will be what it is supposed to be this year. About seeing our friends and family, and being with each other for our first Christmas as husband and wife.